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Since healing myself over two years ago I just EXPECT health. The past week I have had my voice disappear, sporadic headaches and just general “yucky” feelings in and around my head and throat. I have only been to the doctor (besides yearly check-ups) maybe 2 times over the past two years and that is from someone who USED to be there there 2-3 times a week! So when I DO feel “a bit off” I know I need to analyze WHY this happened. I know our health is a culmination of MANY factors in our life and I want to share those with you as well as some of the lessons I as a healer have learned (AGAIN) over the last week being less than 100% healthy.
OUR BODY IS OUR VESSEL NOT WHO WE ARE
I am very aware now that the body is not US but it is our vessel. Most of the time I do not even FEEL my body anymore and this is from someone who was in chronic pain for over 6 years! SO.. I become VERY aware when I do feel a part of my body and look to figure out WHAT it is trying to tell me (USUALLY pretty quickly). 
I KNOW health is a culmination of many things around us:
What we put into our body be it food or drink plays a huge part.
Healthy relationships with friends and family and love heals and are healing.
Getting sunlight and exercise is VERY important.
Our environment, dust, mold, this time of year pollen in the US, what we use to clean, etc….
Messages we send ourselves via self talk and our own consciousness.
Rest and enough sleep.
Meditation, time for self, time doing things we LOVE.
Gratitude — acknowledgment for what we DO have health and any other-wise increases what we receive.
Working our brains and learning to stay engaged and not become “bored”.
I know there are others. Want to help me see what I missed — please leave a comment! What else helps you to STAY healthy?
SO where Did I Fall Short and WHAT did I Learn?
Ahh old habits — gotta love them! Okay so maybe not LOVE them but thankfully I am able to grin when I think about it. 
I feel it is important to accept that MAYBE it will take a LITTLE longer to tweak them so that your reaction is MOSTLY what you want it to be. I have gotten a LOT better with all my habits but when I first felt the tickle in my throat my first thought was “I CAN’T Get Sick”. Now there are 2 BIG MISTAKES in that sentence right there!
Firstly I am concentrating on my illness and un-wellness instead of my health so I am telling my body I AM SICK. I talk about this a lot when I talk about Shifting Attention and in the Paging Me System.
Secondly I am saying I KNOW better than God/The Universe and am resisting what is coming to me. My body was obviously trying to tell me something, why not listen and figure out what it had to say and take action?
Well, I did finally listen although it was after a few days of what I would call “old behavior patterns”.
I Learned:
I am still human.
Honestly since healing I feel SO GOOD sometimes I feel I am invincible. But I still need sleep, rest and to show my body the love and care it needs.
What you resist persists
It was funny to me how it surfaced…. I have been obsessed with preventing my kid’s allergies so much so that I forgot to use simple natural preventative measures on myself. My children used to be on allergy medicine for 2 months in the Spring and 1 in the fall. I now know how to control them naturally with saline solution, plenty of showers and hand washing, plenty of fluids and other natural techniques. I have been SO focused on them that once again I reverted back to my old habits of not looking out for myself. I have been thinking ALLERGIES every day for the last 2 weeks and here they are…
Forgiveness of self
Okay so I overlooked some things and now I couldn’t talk during the best festival in town where we saw at least 30 people I would have loved to have talked to. Instead I kept motioning to my throat to tell them I couldn’t speak (while I wondered if they were thinking “germs!”) . It is OKAY. The world won’t end. All these people are still in the community. If anything it reminded me of people I should be reaching out to and getting in touch with for more than a 5 minute “What Have you been up to?” at the annual fair.
Everything Happens for a Reason
I teach my first workshop this coming Saturday at a Spiritual Arts Fair. I NEED my voice… I do not believe in coincidences. I needed to “APPRECIATE EVERY MOMENT NOT JUST THE GOOD ONES” and refocus on the WHY. Maybe I needed to rest my voice this week so it is tiptop for the workshop and the only way to get me to take care of myself was for my body to say “No VOICE FOR YOU!”. Okay — I GET IT! Sorry, I will TRY and pay better attention BEFORE next time!
TRUST IN MYSELF
Last week I was telling all my friends I was “concerned because I was NOT stressed about my workshop and all the prep work that had to be done in one week”. Is that just inviting a wrench to be thrown in, or what? What I learned is no matter WHAT the time crunch is, no matter WHAT I feel needs to be done… it is Okay. The world will not end if I don’t get to do EVERYTHING I envisioned… knowing myself I envisioned too much to begin with! Yes, I am STILL a RECOVERING perfectionist! I’ve got to honor and support myself and celebrate when I am not stressed — NOT QUESTION IT!
I am ALWAYS learning. I have gained so much more awareness than my “sleeping self” 3 years ago but I still do slip back temporarily and that is okay. I have clients I coach that get SO mad at themselves with EACH little slip. EACH one CAN BE learned from.
While awakening it is important to remember to be kind to yourself. The sheer noticing that you did not react how in hindsight you might wish you did is to be applauded. These moments become fewer and further between. Celebrate EACH time YOU DO listen or are able to stop yourself before falling back on routine. Keep moving forward — it DOES get easier!
I went to the doctor and it IS just allergies. There were simple things I could have done to prevent them and I know now. I am grateful I had yet another opportunity to learn and grateful to share it with you.
Do you try and think about what you have learned “when something doesn’t go your way?”
Are you kind to yourself and can you laugh at what you think of as “mistakes”?
Life would be pretty boring if it “went the way we EXPECTED” ALL the TIME! Every situation is an opportunity for growth. I would LOVE your comments and stories.
Also I wanted to send a big thank you to all my friends who sent me natural remedies — I am trying them ALL and my voice is slowly coming back. Thanks for all your help. It is so greatly appreciated.
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I know exactly what you are talking about. I took on a telesales job recently although it’s not something I’m comfortable with. And I lost my voice within three days of starting the job! Guess who was self sabotaging here…
Anjas last blog post..We are living in fearful times
Hi Anja,
So nice to see you here and yes that is exactly what I mean! When we start to pay attention to what we are “putting out there” and begin to listen and KNOW what we really want — we can see how our body responds. When we are consciously aligning with what we want miracles occur — when we are not — we are given undeniable signs that we are NOT on the right path. Glad someone’s looking out for us!
Thanks again Anja for taking the time to comment and share.
Love,
Jenny
Well Jenny, you’ve done it again. Beautifully insightful and bravely honest. I love the piece…and your loving care in sharing what you learn. Bravisimo!
Hi Camille,
Thank you so much! You were right there with me offering support, suggestions and insights and I thank you SO MUCH for all you do for me! I received your thoughtful card in the (snail) mail yesterday and can’t tell you how much it meant! YOU are a sweetheart and it has been a joy sharing our lives. You’re doing wonderfully Camille and I hope you are taking the time to celebrate each success – you have had SO many since we first met!
Lotsa Love and hugs,
Jenny
Sounds like you are continuing to learn from your life experience Jenny. That’s really what it’s all about. For those who are paying attention, challenges open the door to discovery and growth. On that, congratulations on your willingness to continue soaking up the knowledge that can only come from experience and awareness.
Hi Jonathan,
Thank you Jonathan. Having my greatest accomplishment (thus far
) in healing myself come from my biggest challenge (all my diseases) DID make me VERY AWARE EVERYTHING has a lesson you can learn from IF you can see it that way.
When you let go of that NEED to control everything and just try to OBSERVE and learn when things don’t go the way you expected – it makes everything SO EASY.
I really appreciate you commenting Jonathan — thank you. Yes, I continue to grow and learn every day and am so very grateful for this beautiful wild learning adventure called life.
Gratefully,
Jenny
Hi Jenny,
Well…isn’t this strange! I can relate! I normally feel pretty good (in fact, I don’t remember the last time I was at the dr.). And the last few days I first had a sore throat, and then some bad headaches. It wasn’t bad enough to go to the doctor. However, it did make me slow down and take in a few less things. And it made me realize – maybe like you – that I don’t have to do it all. Or “all” that I think I have to do. When I need a break, I should take it. And this was following on the heels of just returning from vacation – and stepping right into extra busyness in addition to catching up from being gone.
So – today I feel good. Back to normal. And I’m also thinking that maybe it has to do with the relaxed food menu that started on vacation, and continued after we came home. And a lack of exercise. So, I’m back to eating more of the normal healthy meals I’m used to – and I’m starting to work exercise back in.
I hope you’re feeling all back to normal quickly. And I wish you the very best for this upcoming weekend – and for your first workshop you’ll be teaching. (which is completely awesome that you’re doing this, by the way!!)
Jenny, thanks much for the reminders that if we’re not feeling completely healthy – maybe there’s a reason for this…
And thanks for continuing to be as open and honest about all of this as you are – that’s what makes coming here so fully enjoyable for me – the real-ness you project!
Lances last blog post..Sunday Thought For The Day
Hi Lance,
I am so glad you are feeling back to your old self and took the time to notice WHY you were feeling the way you were. Amazing that we do have ALL the answers but it actually takes being aware enough to ask the questions to get them.
Our body is ALWAYS generating new cells. We are TOTALLY new in under one year. So it is VERY important that we take notice of what we FEED ourselves (notice the nice lead in to your latest Sunday thought of day — brilliant by the way)
What we surround ourselves with, tell ourselves, ingest affects WHAT kind of cells are being created — healthy or damaged. It makes sense to stop and question WHY we get sick yet for some reason we are not taught that. Hopefully we will see this change.
I’m doing better every day and know I’ll be tip-top on Saturday thanks to my body stopping me and giving me some important lessons AGAIN.
I am very excited for the workshop and Fair for many reasons and know I’ll come away with even more lessons learned!
Thanks Lance. You always make me smile and say such nice things about this blog — it is appreciated more than I can say! Have a wonderful week.
Love,
Jenny
Jenny, I can especially relate to over-focusing on ‘I can’t get sick’. This happens to me when my kids get sick, or when I am around other people that are sick, and of course creates all that energy around the idea of getting sick. I think for me, getting too busy is a big risk factor also, and neglecting those ’self-care’ items you mentioned. Also, whenever I am out of my element energetically – say on vacation or something, I have learned to pay special attention. Thanks again for you insight! Lisa
Lisa (mommymystic)s last blog post..2nd Chakra Series – Motherhood and Creating
Hi Lisa,
It is my pleasure to share my life lessons and I figure I can’t be the ONLY one who goes through this, right?
We just got back from vacation and I know that part of the busy-ness (like Lance said) of catching up and getting back in the flow of things definitely contributed as well. I thought I was being better and giving myself time to rest and unpack a bit MORE than I would have but in hindsight I could have “let it go” a bit more.
Ahh life – never dull is it! Thank goodness for that!
Always a pleasure Lisa — off to check out your new post — sounds great.
Love,
Jenny
Hi Jenny,
You may already know this, or have heard it from another reader, but just in case — someone told me about 6 years ago that time-release vitamin C would work great for pollen allegies, and it has worked for me and everyone I’ve shared it with except one person. Regular vitamin C doesn’t do it, for some reason.
(Also, I want to apologize again for my ungrateful response in the past to your generosity.)
Dots last blog post..Feelings About Spring
Hi Dot,
Apology accepted gladly and I have thought so many times about writing to you but didn’t know where to begin. This gesture means the world to me!
You made my day Dot! 
I knew C helped but haven’t heard that time-release C works better so this is something I will DEFINITELY look into.
I really appreciate you leaving a comment and would love to know how you are doing. I saw you were trying Silva…. I LOVE the guided meditation but haven’t gotten the whole class. It has been beautiful to hear of Cath’s successes with it.
With love and gratitude,
Jenny
Jenny,
Thanks for sharing this. I find so much things to relate to in this article: our body is the vessel, or health is the result of many factors, some visible and controllable, some a little more etheric and subject to habits.
I experienced some downs in my health lately but that because I changed my raw food diet during my trip to Japan last week. Going again on cooked food was seriously affected my energy, but now I’m recovering and feel much better.
I’m also on a period in which I try to lighten up a bit and shift to forgiveness and acceptance rather than to achievement and goals. Maybe this is at a more deeper level than we know now…
Dragos Rouas last blog post..The Trip To New Zealand – Waiheke Island
Hi Dragos,
I am so happy you enjoyed the post. I have found forgiveness and acceptance to work wonders in my accomplishments. I think it is important to have goals so you can have a picture of where you would like to be and WHAT would make you fulfilled. BUT I feel it is important not to feel overwhelmed by your goals with the worries of NOT achieving or by being obsessed too much by the end results because that can result in no action.
I have had SUCH energy when I de-tox by going vegetarian and eating a LOT more foods. Something for me to consider seriously for my future – the issues is I love to cook! But I know this would open a whole OTHER way of food prep for me… so I am not ruling it out… just want to do it when I can focus my energy on it to ensure I make good food choices.
Yes, we are not our bodies but we do need to treat them tenderly and with care in a multitude of ways!
Thanks so much Dragos. I really appreciate your time in reading and leaving a comment.
Gratefully,
Jenny
We are both our own best teachers as well as at times our own worst enemies, then again sometimes we need to have “stuff” be in our life to give us the contrast we need to get the clarity to move forward. I couldn’t help but ( wrong word I know) notice this comment”I was “concerned because I was NOT stressed about my workshop ” i relate to that- I am sure you will attract back you voice and be awesome. I look forward to hearing about it
Love
Suzie
Suzie Cheels last blog post..Clarity Comes Through Contrast
Hi Suzie,
You nailed it Suze! I am my best teacher and worst enemy for sure! I welcome the challenges now (uh oh did I say that) um… I welcome the OCCASIONAL challenges now
because they give me that opportunity for growth. I love learning and what’s more important than learning about my own body and soul and HOW it works?!
My voice is back — still a little scratchy voice but I am getting better every day and am so excited for the weekend. Look forward to talking with you soon!
Thanks so much for commenting — your post sounds like something I NEED to read — off there now!
Lotsa Love,
Jenny
Hey Jenny,
In NLP we take the stance that symptoms are communications about needed change and that allergies are simply an incorrect learned body response. I’ve seen people heal an allergy in 5 minutes
Your story reminds me of a gal I worked with who was very discouraged by anxiety she experienced in public meetings and around public speaking. When we coached around this feeling and fully explored what was going on in her stomach – it was her tummy’s way of reminding her to do her best – at all times. As soon as she got and appreciated the message her body was sending – all the symptoms immediately disappeared!
It’s easy to make an enemy out of ill health – however I’ve found that a large part of healing comes from learning to love your body – no matter what it is doing
Paula Kawal | Journey Inwards last blog post..Expecting the Good: There is Much We Can Learn from Our Storms
Hi Paula,
I believe it! I know any kind of illness can disappear in under 5 minutes – if cerebral palsy can I have no doubt allergies can as well… which leads me to what I have been wondering….while I am MUCH better I still have a feeling I missed a lesson here – when that clarity comes – the lingering symptoms will vanish….
I am very much looking forward to the workshop and have gotten more done than I could have expected considering everything else going on right now. I just had a meeting with my intern who will be helping me and everything is very much under control. So… hmm… just meditated this morning but might need to go back and see what I missed…. and it is VERY funny because in typing this ANOTHER thing I have been thinking about lately JUST came to me and wow – gotta share with you.
The body speaks VERY clearly with signals and representations and in listening and wanting to figure it out comes clarity. Thanks for your comment — I think it was the catalyst for the final stages of my healing.
Have I told you you’re wonderful Paula? 
Your friendship is so deeply appreciated.
Love, xo
Jenny
Your reflections on healing from within are an uplifting inspiration. To speak from personal experiences as you do encourages other people to begin to believe they are also capable of healing themselves on some level. This inspires hope that may not have been as present or powerful before.
A related aside is that one is also learning if he knows someone who is unwilling to acknowledge each person controls the state of the physical body with the mind. Lessons of an observer of someone who remains unwilling to acknowledge self-destructive tendencies include, overcoming helplessness, learning to let go of the need to control, and surrendering to what is. You only control how you choose to think and feel or whether you choose to think period. Such lessons can be very humbling and at the same time, life-transforming in a different way than what your post describes. Thus, a person can be grateful for his own difficulties and those ofothers for every experience offers valuable lessons.
Liara Coverts last blog post..10 reasons to be grateful for difficulty
Hey, Jenny,
After I left my comment saying I was apologizing “again,” I said, “Wait, did I even apologize the first time?” Anyway, I’m glad all is cleared up. I wanted to re-read your ebook that you so generously sent me, but I find I deleted it in a fit of pique at all the stuff I find hard to believe but actually do believe on some level.
How I’m doing — better emotionally but worse physically. Silva helps with meditation and sleep, but I’m blocked by my nonbelief using some of the tools.
I asked Evelyn for some guidance, and she got the information that an Akashic Records reading (after I already had one with Akemi) wasn’t needed and neither was Silva. What I need most is a healing modality I can believe in, first, to help me gain a belief in the practices I could do for myself if I could believe in them. Evelyn asked if the Reconnection or something similar would be appropriate would be appropriate, and the answer was yes.
She recommended you, which sounds good to me. I’m not ready for the Reconnection yet, though. I have some inner work I need to do first relating to taking responsibility for what I attract and also trying to bulid a belief in the Reconnection. (For some reason, I keep typing “the Reconstruction.”) However, I’m keeping you in mind and investigating your website more.
Best wishes, former Long Islander to former Manhattanite,
Dot
Hi Liara,
I know no other way than to speak from experiences… never that good at fictional writing and I LOVE writing from my heart!
Seems I found my niche! 
Yes, people are more apt to relate when they know someone else has done it. I am no more or less than anyone else. We are all connected and we all have such amazing powers within. I was scared and in denial for a while as well and know owning up to your life as it is thus far can have you ducking your head under the blanket again for safety and to go back to sleep. What I have found though is if you hold your head out long enough and just take that first step toward awakening… there might be that little bit of inner work to do but the rewards are SO astronomical that it makes it very hard to contemplate being in that asleep state anymore.. It is a beautiful thing when my clients reach that point and KNOW they are awakening and funnily enough that is always the word they use because it is such a perfect word for what we all feel at that point.
Much Love Liara — I love the way you write — so poetic!
Jenny
Hi Dot,
Good timing Dot! I just finished updating the new version of my ebook and today am going to send it out to people who have received it in the past. I will of course include you on that list.
My gut reaction was “Dot NEEDS to see The Living Matrix”. I reviewed it here: http://jennymannion.com/healpain/2009/04/the-living-matrix-movie-the-new-science-of-health-and-healing-is-here/
In it they talk about the science behind The Reconnection and other Information and Energy Medicines. Maybe if you saw some of the “proof” it would be easier for you to swallow and resonate with.
I have had Reconnective Healing sessions work on “non believers” and I remember in my seminar some of my teachers even telling me they didn’t believe it at first either. When you feel the energy — there really is no denying it. I have felt very little during Reiki sessions and other energy work and what I felt during my Reconnective sessions really floored me. I KNEW I was hooked!
Follow your path Dot and remember to enjoy the journey. Please try not to overwhelm yourself and take time to do some things that you enjoy. It is easy to get very into researching modalities and WOW are there SOOOO many. TRUST YOURSELF. The Silva method resonated and it has helped you to sleep better which is so very important. Take the next step and ask your next question… it might be breadcrumbs that your intuition is giving you but they will lead you somewhere… Don’t be hard on yourself about non belief… we were not taught to believe in any of this. Un-doing hard wired beliefs can take time and that is OKAY. You are aware of your intention to heal and believe me THAT goes a long way. Give yourself credit for your perseverance.
I’ll get the ebook off to you shortly and thanks again for reaching out.
Love,
Jenny
Excellent introspection, Jenny. As I was reading this I realized that you could be talking about me. I’ve overcome a lot of health and life issues and sometimes don’t understand why things don’t feel “right.” What I try to do it go back to basics, the things that worked before, and make sure that my three main areas–mind, body, spirit–are in balance. If one is out of kilter, my entire self is off.
peace,
mike
livelife365
Mike Fosters last blog post..Let’s Nip This Swine In The Bud!
Hi Mike,
So very wise Mike! Looking inward at all three areas – mind, body and spirit is an excellent way to determine what is going on.
I am so happy the post resonated with you. That is WHY I write about my life lessons — figure I can’t be the ONLY one who feels this way!
Thanks so much for commenting. Have a wonderful weekend Mike!
Love,
Jenny
hey Jen – have you tried olive leaf extract (from fresh leaves)? – just kidding (except it IS good). One day we won’t need the pills and potions, methinks.
I really enjoyed reading this – your self-talk has a very familiar ring to it!
Things have changed around a lot for me since the distance reconnective healing session I had with you the other day, Jenny – I’ll email you about it within the next few hours.
love from Rob x
Robins last blog post..Life And Teaching Of The Masters Of The Far East
Hi Robin,
I just read your email and am THRILLED with how many changes the Reconnective Healing brought on — amazing isn’t it?!
Now you can understand my passion for this modality!
Yes, self talk is a tricky one.
I have mine PRETTY TAMED but every once in a while it gets loose. The GOOD side now is it never gets loose for long. I would go for weeks with my mind running my life and now it is usually a few hours max before my heart takes over once again and I am living from love once more.
Thanks for the olive leaf suggestion — I am feeling GREAT now but will put it down with the other wonderful suggestions I got… JUST in CASE there is a next time!
Lots of Love Robin! Look forward to session #2!
xo
Jenny